welcome back, me

wow, Europe was eye-opening.

(but isn't it always?)

everyone keeps asking me "how was Paris? how was Europe?"

I'm really at a loss for words..I just say "goooood"

all I can really say is..it's not what I expected..

BUT-you can't complain about the scenery..the countryside..oh.my.gawdd.

it is to die for.. that's one thing I love about Europe..or maybe the Western countries.

The scenery. The green. The white. Breathtaking.

capturing it on camera is not doing it justice but that's the least a traveler can do.

On my trip though, I learned/discovered a few things:
Jack Kerouac (although he's American)

Josephine Baker (also American at first)

Italians are worse than the French

I'm not used to the winter too well..

Paris is quite dirty, sadly.

I'm too sluggish to post any photos here cos even doing it on facebook is so taxing..

I'll be off to Krabi, Thailand for New Years on the 30th (woohoo!)

looking forward to that..

I'll leave you now with this song which sounded extra awesome while i was on the road :)

I met the Walrus

Check this out guys :)

Paris, j'arrive!

Wow, I feel like the worst sloth in the world..It's been too long since I last posted :(

feeling really bad...

My excuse: it's the holidays..I tend to do nothing but watch lotsa tv

(more like tv shows on the computer..)

It's about 2 days to my flight to Paris.

Yay!!

My mum, aunt, aunt's friend, and me will be going on a 7-day tour after being in Paris for 2 days

We'll be going to Italy - Rome, Venice, Milan, Florence...; Switzerland - Basel..; Monaco - Monte Carlo; and also other places in France like Cannes (!!!!), Nice (!!)

Aaahh this would be my first time in Europe and first time ever going on tour while I'm there :)

Oh, I will be visiting Disneyland too! should be awesome

I will tell you much more about it after I've come back from Paris, def ;)

On another note, I've come across more beautiful websites =)

Enjoy these:

The Next Page (a collaboration of DaydreamLily with English Muse!)

Lily and the Muse (another collaboration by the dynamic duo!)

The Boo and the Boy (there are some really good decorating ideas)

My Dog-Eared Pages

{Paris, you're in my dreams}

~All Photos courtesy of Tina from The English Muse - through WeHeartIt~

*Please click on the photos to go to Tina's WeHeartIt page to enjoy loads more of beautiful pics*

Thank you, Tina!

oh, by the way, i just joined WeHeartIt cos it was just too good to resist :)

~bliss...for now~

Happy Holidays & Merry Christmas (soon) & Blessed New Year (if I don't get back here by then)

love and peace,

di

small hint

here's a video i found (with the help of a friend) on youtube :)

it's too damn amazing, coincidentally it's my all-time favorite 80s song..it's the best!

it just brightened my day (night, actually..) and mood :)

a small hint that tomorrow will be a better day.

can't wait.

peace + love,

di

Into the Woods. . .

Finally! I've taken the time I have to put just a few of my forest trip photos here :)

With my trusty Sony Cybershot (DSC T-2) baby.. and yes, no dslr (or slr, for that matter) yet..

Oh, well, patience is virtue :) and also maybe if I worked then I could save up for one.

The lake where me and the boys saw a huge-ass Arapaima!

This was what we saw (inside the forest,somewhere..) when we looked up.

I just love the shapes and the spaces in between.

Ah, nature.

(This was an awesomely poor attempt to capture it, my apologies)

On the right is a Bamboo plant which is really, really big (although it isn't portrayed as such here, sorry)

This 'trip' was definitely memorable-worthy. We got lost after walking for about 3 hours.. and luckily (Thank God) there was a fence ( yup, apparently we walked across the whole forest) and Joachim managed to break it (it's not really legal..) and I was just happy we were saved!

We ended up at the end of the forest and actually had to take a cab back to the starting point because it was just too far! And maybe also because we were drained from all the walking. And leeches! Aaaaagghh!

But all in all it was great fun with great company :) Awesome!

love n peace

Love is a Verb

I just came across a cover of Massive Attack's Teardrop :)

It's by Incubus (!) and you can get it here, you're welcome ;)

And this is all thanks to my lovely cousin Maya (Raksha) =)

smiling alot huh..sorry can't help it, really.

short post today, sorry again, though i will inform you that I went to a forest reserve recently,

BUT-quite lazy to post up some photos so maybe another time..(tomorrow maybe?)

had a lot of fun but I will say more when there are photos :)

in the mean time, hope you enjoyed Teardrop and its cover =)

sorry about the smileys!

love n peace

A New Day

Hello Tuesday!

News Flash: I have just decided to take up photography! It's so exciting, although I don't have my own DSLR yet..BUT - I'm so lucky because my good friend Arvind (Thampy) had his old SLR lying around (it's a film SLR btw - even more exciting! - Canon EOS 300v), so I'm loaning it from him for now (shameless..)

Arv's is in black though - cooler :)

and hopefully I will get it up and running by Wednesday because I will be too busy today, with all the graduation recitals going on..(about 6 of them!)

oh gosh I'm so excited..but I am really strapped for cash right now..it sucks so badly! ughh

Also, I haven't really learnt or read up on photography (e.g. the basics) just relying on pointers by my two favourite boys :) but don't worry I will kick my own ass to start reading up...soon..

.Joachim.

.Arvind.

(No, I did not take these photos.. haha..please check them out tho)

Peace n Love,

di

When We Were Young

I just found this hiding in my adolescent journal, and thought I would share it here to show how bad at writing I was. I miss it, though.

The Streets

In the city
Where everything happens
The streets are packed with people
businessmen, lawyers, beggars,
and me.

The streets. . .
comprise of the park and great buildings
The park. . . a peaceful place
The buildings. . . a busy place

It's funny to know that two different places
can get along well
Even though criminals from the streets
commit crimes in the park,
these two places can actually get along. . . well

In the city
Where the streets live in,
Where the beggars live in,
Where the people live in,
and me.

I love the streets,
And those busy people and beggars,
The park and the great buildings,
I love the streets.

haha. This was heavily inspired by the book series Fearless by Francine Pascal (of the Sweet Valley series fame). The series made me fall in love with New York and that was what I had in mind while writing this sad excuse for a poem. Oh by the way, this is my FIRST EVER poem :)
so maybe I should cut myself some slack(?)

click on this photo to be treated to a piece of feel good music :)

Actually I have to say I was very much influenced by this series. I kinda got all of the books EXCEPT for numero uno. Which kinda sucks. I used the main character's (Gaia Moore) name for my email and stuff. Freaky. I kinda wished I could be her. Kick bad ass and be cool. Oh I was maybe 13? haha good times.

peace and love

Just a Minute. . . in October

Hello everyone! this is my first time at J.a.M. so here goes...

Reading... Paulo Coelho's Veronika Decides To Die and also Orhan Pamuk's Snow. Yup, two at the same time, although I did start on Paulo first ;)

Watching... Adventureland. Again (oh yeah..). Right now I'm craving for cheesy rom-com movies I don't know why. I feel really pathetic. But (yay) looking forward to Inglourious Basterds and tons of other movies out there.

Listening... to random music introduced by my beloved friends and also other bloggers. So, recently I listened to Oi Va Voi (a British band, please check it out!) and Passion Pit :)

Buying... bought, actually. A dress and a new wallet! yayyy

Loving... the fact that it's the holidays and two trips abroad are waiting for me in December :)

Wanting... to be better at piano. And more money. In my dreams.

Playing...along? Easy! Just add your name and link to the blog roll here so that other lovely bloggers may check you out :)

peace and love

Pretty painting courtesy of Derek McCrea :)

sunshine

I actually found these a long time ago, just didn't (or too lazy to) post it up :)

these are by the quirky photographer Terry Richardson.

Only because they are two of my most favourite people in movies :)

.Leo.

.WillFerrell.

Mr diCaprio is just pure desire. Plain and simple.

Mr Ferrell just cracks me up. Every. Single. Time.

Here's a little something extra to enjoy :)

Peace n Love

been a long time

And here's why: I was busy finishing up my term paper for Music History. And then I fell sick. Yup. Was down with fever, and then because I didn't eat properly, I was attacked by gastric pain. It was such a bad experience I never want to get it, ever again. I don't even want to think or imagine or describe it. ugh.

BUT - Thanks to my loving boyfriend, Jo, I'm alive and well :) what would I do without you?

anyways on to some good stuff.

Exams are over (although I did miss my one and only History paper due to the crappy sickness, which I will have to sit for only next year, which in turn becomes a pain because I hate to sit for papers and now I have to wait so long and it doesn't help to think about how everyone else in my class have already sat for it)

Anyways - I went out today, with cousin Meens, because I felt like spending money and it's been too long since I did..I think the last time was in April? but I spent it on something I desperately needed: a wallet. And also something else I didn't need as much: a dress :)

Yep, it's from Roxy :)

check out the ribbon detail, it's awesome :)

yeah, that's about all I spent on..besides a java chip frapp and tempura in Sushi Zanmai heheh..

Now, it's back to being poor :(

Scrounging time is here again, oh too early..

xo, di

oh the joy

It's officially Thursday, so I'll have to say that I just watched 500 Days of Summer on Tuesday :)

Wow it was really 'real', as cuz Meena put it.

It's not your typical love story fairy tale nonsense. I think that's a good thing because people should wake up and realize it's not all happy everyday. Plus, there were lotsa funny parts, funny things and quotes...overall, it was simply awesome :)

And don't get me started on the soundtrack! Meens was right, Fox Searchlight Pictures make the some of the BEST movies. With good music! scratch that, with freaking Awesome mind-blowing music!! it's like getting a 6-star spa massage treatment..for your ears...I can't explain it..I guess I'm just drawn to indie and folk..a lot..wouldn't have, without the help from Meens of course..she was my first source. :)

Here are some of the tracks you will encounter while watching this super movie

1. Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap

2. Us - Regina Spektor

3. Mushaboom - Feist

4. Bad Kids - Black Lips

5. She's Got You High - Mumm Ra

6. Vagabond - Wolfmother

ok, that's enough, I might as well copy down the whole soundtrack already haha..

enjoy it as much as i did :)

xo,

di

first attempt

i just stumbled upon another beautiful site :)

it's called Daydream Lily and it's full of art and, my favorite: interior decorating ideas =)

and this video is 'borrowed' from the website as well >.<

here's another sneak peek to the site of all things beautiful and happy

it's just too pretty, is it not?

it's a hot air balloon necklace!

i really wish i have nothing else to do but blog then i would have the time do so much of crazy, nice, awesome stuff. But then, I would run out of money so maybe I should be at least working part-time or something.

For now, it's off to starting my dreaded assignment which is due very soon (yes i'm only just about to start..)

xo,

di

time for change

thanks to my awesomest bandmate (not to mention - although i clearly am right now - awesome singer) Adeline we got a spot on the UCSI website on the e-news section..you're welcome to click here to see it in all its glory ;)

I'm thinking of doing something for this blog...it's getting a bit boring...i'm too lazy to put up interesting photos or even pictures, just the occasional links and that's it.

It's time for a change..but I haven't thought enough about it..so, hopefully it happens for my next post.

toodles

xo

inspiration overload

OMG I have never, ever been this inspired before... although i can't really do much about it...just wait patiently until i finish my studies so i can fully concentrate peacefully on the many many many stuff i want to do and acomplish XD
ok ok, what i'm going on about is that i just happened to stumble upon a list of beautiful blogs; mostly on fashion, wedding ideas, photography, and interior decorating. oh gosh it was like a volcano erupting right in front of me. There was just so many pictures, drawings, photos, words...it was too much to take in all in just a night..so now i have them all bookmarked and will get updates when there are updates woohooooo~! i just opened up my world a little bit more...
here are the links if you're curious ;)
My Little Apartment
Fifi Lapin
Ruby Gatta
Project Wedding (can't hurt to be prepared right?)
Alannah Hill . . . just to enjoy the site, it's too magical, thanks to my fav friend, joanne lim SL
there's so much to indulge in, i may have to come back with more..
xo,
di

Lazy Days

Just one day of waking up a little later than usual..*poof* I tend to do the same the next day...
damn..as much as i love to sleep (and i do, A LOT) I can't be sleeping so much no more...it's a disease..or a parasite...scary..and my (firefox) browser seems a bit crazy...it's like with a mind of its own or something...
Every time i try to do better (attempt ot work harder), I just don't..it's quite frustrating...maybe it's the environment i'm living in..but more reasonably, it's just me...being really really lazy...
oh i just joined the gym - Celebrity Fitness (formerly California Fitness, Midvalley)
yeah...i figured it would be the best motivation for me to work out and get fit because I'm bloody paying for it! lol
But the facilities are really good so no complains :)
will be making my way back to seremban in a little bit..miss my doggie Nova...

w-o-w

what a sombre day it is...it's supposedly Malaysia's Independence Day...was expecting maybe..fireworks at midnight, but no...and according to a source, there're no parades shown on TV..very suspicious...but then again, In Your Face, N*&^b!! wooohooooo~~

hahahha very happy now :D

hmm...tomorrow is the first day of the new semester..hoping for the best...

peace and love (although none to the govt)

-dees(10 in French haha)

restless

Maybe it's because I've been in seremban too long because I was getting used to KL life already...Idon't know..

right now, I feel like going out to KL but then again, I don't feel like it...it's really weird..

anyways..mum just borrowed some learn-it-yourself books for French :)

but really, French is frikkin hard..

been a typically cool day..rained, for the most part..so that was good..

watched gossip girl for abit :)

i know it's a bit too much for my age, but i kinda escape to their world..the Upper East Side..and pretty pretty clothes and super nice and easy lifestyle..aaah..and not to mention the boys *owww!*

peace+love

Blue Days Blue

its been awhile eh..
It's the hols for now, until the 1st of September fer me..
what have I done so far, since exams were done with? hmmm...practiced piano (not half enough as i should be...), watched movies, started watching Bleach (anime), washed my car, spent quality time with cousins (not ALL of em but a fair share :D )
yeah, thats basically it.. haven't done recording with daphne yet..hmm
and..i have to go back to uni every monday for piano class..which i am thankful i have because if i didn't, there would be like a 78% chance of me failing next semester (at piano).. so that's good..
I'll be going to Paris (yes.....Paris!!!!!! a bit too early than expected, but nevermind) in December! wooohoo~! good news: mum will be coming with. bad news: joachim can't come :(
but it's ok because i plan to go back there with him.. i don't think ONE trip to PARIS is enough...less than 14 days..totally NOT ENOUGH
so yeah..and Paris is one of the places i hope to settle down in..yeah..dreaming big.. XP
anyways, yesterday was cousin's day out :)
yogz, hemz, arvind, sucin, meens, shubz and joachim :)
it was good! we walked around in The Curve, watched a movie (The Orphan), and had dinner at TGI Fridays (first time for me!)..the orphan was awesome..its a thriller not a horror movie..was good although i was flinching most of the time...sometimes its good to scare yourself i guess..the movie was filled with so much tension, i was close to getting emotional...but thats how i am with any movie you throw in my face..so yeah..the story was really good! quite original actually..to my surprise, Leonardo diCaprio was one of the producers! he wouldn't just decide to co-produce a movie if he didn't think it would be good right?? so yeah, if you can, check it out for kicks :)
-deez out

aftershock

been a while...just came across this thanks to Zach Braff

i wish i was in America so i could join all these organizations...yeah i know there are many here but they don't make it easy to do what u can..
anyways, i just watched Adventureland last night.. it was good :) Jesse Eisenberg is good! or he's just good looking to me ;)

happy yappy times a-comin'

I'm in a band! finally...after so long...and we've got a gig coming up...in less than 24 hours to be exact LOL
You can check us out here and also our Facebook page :)
excited-nyer!

mundane chaos

i have tons of work...they're piling up but that's just how i work..i wait for everything to nearly explode and only then do i kick myself to start finishing them up.. to date, i have orchestration project, theory homework, and moral studies presentation..shit's hitting the fan pretty soon..damn girl..i'm just not good with assignments and homework...i wish my homework required only watching movies (any movies) and listening to good music..aaahh that's the life...

I wanna learn French..I've been wanting to learn a new language but just didn't know what..and then Joseph Gordon-Levitt kinda decided for me :) sadly, classes are expensive..and they operate like frikkin mini universities or something..they have 'semesters' and shit...so right now i can't take any classes and probably need to wait til next year cos i don't wanna go for classes in december..it'll just screw up my holiday plans..holidays are uber important to me...i'm just a natural born bummer, i guess :P

i'm just amazed with my friend Adeline, she's really good with words.. i feel she'd be an awesome poet..once, she described Joachim's milk breath as a small boy holding an umbrella...i was like whuuuttt....hahah very refreshing to be around her..she comes up with the funniest (sometimes thought-provoking) things..oh also she described the notes of a piano piece i was working on (the first half of Bach's Prelude and Fugue numero 9 of Book II) as grated cheese...LOL a sackful of surprises that one...

anyways..can't wait for august but also dreading it because before hols, its finals time...ughh..hate sitting for papers..hate it so bad...

P.S/i've found another option if i were to do masters..accompaniment ;P

saturday night blues

yeah it's a saturday, but i have to say i did quite a lot compared to other saturdays i've come across..washed clothes (the usual), practiced some piano (not so usual..), blogging (not usual), fed dogs (rarely), went out for dinner with meena (not usual), spent time with grandparents (usual).

OK, it may not seem all that super, but i felt it was reasonable..i've accomplished worst than this thats for damn sure... anyways, as you know, sioky is goin to auckland to see the idiot kyle...ughhh...but there's nothing i can do..only be patient and really start saving up my money for travels..i just decided to set up a travel fund...put in money every month, maybe 100-200 bucks?? hopefully i can...and i plan to only use the fund after i graduate...so imagine how much money i can get!! probably not enough still...but still!! at least i have some money right...

so today i had dinner with meensy :) at coffee mug oh gosh it's at such a dodgy area i'm thankful we came home safe...we had a nice talk, updating each other about our lives so far...it was good :)

wanted to go to starbucks for coffee but realized it was too much of hassle and the place (Jusco) would be shit-packed with assholes who make it a point to ALWAYS go out on saturday nights ughh...so we had coffee at coffeemug hahah..it was ok...saved us like 50% of the usual price we pay..so yeah all in all, it was a well-to-do saturday..

nitey nitenite soldiers

what the hell

omg it's been too long...a whole month n 4 days??! ugh im disgusted with myself...anyway...about our singapore trip in april, i really need to record this down in case i forget this : our first day,we were at an mrt station i forgot which stop, to get our tourist passes and meena was looking for a dustbin to throw her coffee cup....there was not one in sight! she walked all over the place n just couldn't find one...until she decided to try the public toilet and there it was LOL..it was so funny and hard to believe,really..
anyhooo...i just found out that my darling friend sioky is going to new zealand to visit my other good friend kyle...behind my back! was she ever gonna tell me?! hmm..i've really got the blues right now...no mood for anything...assignments..practicing piano...nothing...just staying online...
and my course is getting the better of me...i don't know maybe because my friends are suddenly getting mood swings and saying that they feel like quitting cos it's getting really stressful and just too much so i'm also feeling that way sometimes..it's a sad and tough place..but my new-found friend su ann and also my lovely joachim told me to fight..so that's what i'm doing..just not today though...
much love xx

where do i begin..?

I was on hols for about 2 weeks for my semester break and it was a really good one i have to say..it would be very hard to forget this one.. I got to celebrate Joachim's birthday with our beloved friends (sadly some were unavailable because they couldn't get flights to come down and see him...*kidding*)
anyways, he decided that we should go to Singapore to celebrate his birthday and also for a holiday..a 2-in-1 plan...oh goodness i don't know where to start, how to start,...on this trip..i don't think i can...or maybe just not enough energy and brain cells to do it just yet (i just got back 2 days ago) our 2 friends sheldon and jamuna were supposed to come along but they couldn't so it was just the 4 of us: Joe, Meens, Aisha and me...omg it was awesome....i feel kinda bad for having had fun cos we couldn't and could have shared it with Shel and Jamz... i think i need to come back later to write something worth reading...toodles

it feels like years, seymour...

(God knows who this seymour is, he just came to my mind...i just felt as if the title wouldn't be complete without a name..)

wow shiitake mushroom,(in the wise words of my treasured friend, Theresa) i did take my time to get back here huh..

i had like ...4 days of ultimate fun right after my final paper (Theory II, good riddance!!!!!)

first day, off to midvalley to chill with cousin Meens and watch (wait for it) He's Just Not That Into You (I know~!!!) gawd it got me thinking about lotsa things...scary...

and then we talked into the wee hours of the morn...

second day, off to bangsar for a nice pedi and walk around the boutiques..and then (finally) a peek into bangsar village 2 ;P and also a regular single scoop of baskin robbins ice cream(boysenberry something...) yummmm

3rd day, actually nuthin much just hung out with joe :) and watched a few movies..

4th and final day, off to midvalley again(!), had lunch in Gardens heheh...Zanmai Sushi...awesome place...totally wanna go back! walked around with my two very good friends Theresa and KaeTee :) oh Theresa spotted this woman with a nice short white dress, cotton definitely, and she could tell me what colour her undies were hahah..that was such a laugh it was so fun

anyways...thats what happened just so very recently...sorry, can't recall anything else as of yet...

oh a funny thing happened a while back, (jaykay day wooot) when joe and i were stuck at a mamak place because of the rain (i was with him riding) so yeah...there will always be some a**hole who starts smoking as we enjoy our nice cup of teh tarik...so joe calls the waitress (kak) and asks her, (translated) " isn't this place a non-smoking area? *points to the sign* why is he smoking here?"

and she said, (translated) "oh, that applies only to the workers here, the customers can smoke"

hahah

tell me about it, i almost burst out laughing...i think i just shoved it in by smiling like an idiot =)

2 days of mental torture

oh no, my brain can only do so much, i'm so not used to writing papers man... and i only have one paper to write (!!) pathetic, i know..
on history, no less!! god help me..my paper's due this friday and i have just finished my second cup of quite-strong coffee (i only have 3-in-1 bull***t so i mixed 2 packets for half a cup).. will be needing another soon...
i feel a sudden urge to scream but it's 2am..not such a good idea..
you can't count the amount of times i have called out to God tonight...oh one more weeeeek and i'm done..
that's what's keeping me alive
*love*

rain + grass + earth = mud

I just came back from the F1 afterparty..with none other than JAMIROQUAI!!!
i can't believe we went to see them, it felt so right..
joacs and me were supposed to meet with my cousins meena and hema and her boyfriend arvind but it was way too crowded to be able to find each other, so we never did.
besides that, it was raining quite crazily that the race had to be cancelled (yeah, sucks to be those who bought tickets to watch a race, nyeehhh)
as for me, i was only concerned with jamiroquai :) and i was kinda worried they'd had cancelled the afterparty as well..but thank god they didn't because that would mean i 'died' travelling (by bike) all the way for shit..
anyways, like i said, it was raining, so at the time of the afterparty (which was outdoors in the open air) it was drizzling for quite a while.. and it was super muddy, like noone's business (!) and because of that, my jeans got 'hit' and my chucks got 'killed' (i have yet to wash my chucks, only because my back is already aching and mught break any time soon, but i decided to come here for awhile in case i forgot to write this down)
the opening performances were Malik and the Essentials(i'm not sure about the spelling..) with Atilia, and Naturally Seven(who were mind-blowing)
oh we danced to 'Alright', 'Love Fool', 'Little L', 'Cosmic Girl', 'Seven days in sunny June' and loads loads more ;)
damn jaykay is pushing 40 but he certainly doesn't look, it let alone act it..he was all over the stage!! with his signature moves, omg, it was surreal...
All in all, we had a good time. We almost missed everything because at one point we got kinda lazy because of the rain, then we were like aaaah no need to go la...but then we were already halfway there so we figured what the hell just go check it out..it was worth it definitely
and omg the F1 crowd was just mad. too many people, gazillions of them..thank god we came by bike or else we probably would have missed alot of performances..
joachim took photos so i'll try to get a few of them here :)
good nite!

oh save me from me

as of right now, i just finished 400grams of ice cream. in one day. by myself.

I can't believe it. I feel so disgusted with myself ughh.

blow your candles, all 21 of them

this is a tribute to my cousin Jolynn on her 21st Birthday (i'm a day late actually)

Jolynn, oh gosh, where do i start?? she's just the most amazing cousin anyone can ever wish to have, and i am so blessed to have her in my life, without knowing and thinking much about it.
She's the kind of person who will try her best to be there for you when she can.
And she has been there for me, oh countless times..
Wherever she is in the world, she would make you feel as if she's right there beside you (thanks to the genius of the internet, and of course Alexander Graham Bell)
But i would still miss her when she's not around
21 already, she is definitely matured beyond her age..sometimes i feel like she's the older sister i never had (LOL i'm that immature..)
I don't know what else to say, she's so many things and more than anyone can ask for in a daughter, sister, cousin, and friend
She's beautiful inside and out and i'm very proud and lucky (again) to have her as my cousin
Jolynn darling, happy 21st birthday ! You're officially an adult! [even though you have been acting like one for a long time now ;) ]
I love you Jolynn!
Hope you had an awesome 21st party in Melbourne :)
hugs and kisses XOXO

words, words, words

what if i'm too upset to say anything about it?
best way to deal : time
right now that's what i need
yes, we have to voice out our thoughts (except, of course, the really personal stuff)
but...what if i'm too upset/ experiencing a maelstrom of emotions that i can't say anything? and maybe don't want to?
ughh can't think

Pagi yang Gelap.. (how original can i get ?)

yeah, I'm in the middle ( ok, start, but middle sounds better) of my assignment (everybody say yayy-eahh) and it's 2 in the morn and it's kinda sorta raining...and I spotted a medium-sized cockroach in my room!!! damn!!! I LOATHE cockroaches!!! God!! ohhhhh....in my room???! it's THAT dirty???? really?? damn...but i try really..to keep it clean...anyway I murdered it in cold blood... with my bare hands, oh yes, not with Shieldtox... :) i forgot to take a picture though...but hell, if it was a big one, shit, no Shieldtox would be super bad news...in case you haven't noticed, there are shitloads of online boutiques...in Malaysia alone...probably based in kl mostly....damn...it's a good thing though reasonable prices for dresses and stuff....right, I gots to get back to my work then off to bed :)
thank you guys again for visiting my blog :) im so happieeeee, plus I finally started working on my assignment = blisssssss :) till next time, then.
bangbang

Fantasia in the Real World

Right now, I should be working on my assignment....due in less than 2 weeks..oh yes...joy. Anyways, this morning I woke up considerably early and got to uni by 7.45am :) and by 8, it was raining like nobody's business! gawd, thunder, lightning...I was like what the blop! so then I thanked God for making my Tuesdays early so I didn't get stuck in the rain, which was a super close call..

Later in the evening after getting back from uni, I decided to sleep for awhile (yes, I'm fat and lazy and in dire need of exercise) and I ended up sleeping for 2 hours plus (!!!!)...and when I woke up I was dazed cos my housemate was also sleeping (haha) so the house was in total darkness...and here I am, thinking it's already Wednesday morning...OMG I was walking around, thinking about what to do..(go to bathroom, wash up, get ready to go to uni)..i'm looking out my window checking for a morning scene...then I check my phone for the time (I don't have a watch, but thank God my phone clock is set in 24hours system) and i see 1940 hours...but funnily still, I'm thinking it's morning, help me..then after a while I settle down, switch on the lights and got a bit more orientated. AAAAHHHH...it was kinda scary...I don't remember if I was dreaming...but frankly, I hate that feeling, where you don't know whether it's night or day, after you've woken up...sucks. ah well, I'm off to get started on my assignment now..nationalism in the music of Vaughan Williams (bless me)

before it's too late

just recently, my aunt told me that my dad really loves me. and i was like what? "yes, he said that you are everything to him or something to that effect.."
whoa...he never says or does anything to convey even a tiny inkling of that statement, though.
i just feel that we should always show the people we love how and what we feel. tell them how we feel. tell anyone how we feel about anything, that they annoy us with their incessant questions, how it's so wonderful that they never fail to make breakfast for us, anything.
Ah, but yes, it is definitely hard to do all these things. We are only human. Some of us with lots ego. all i can say is that we should try to do these things any which way we feel we can.
oh i watched the movie 'The Reader' starring Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes. the woman would rather go to jail for a crime she didn't commit just so that noone will know she can't read and write.
it was really sad.
one more thing i can't stand, that i had to live through this past weekend..."your dress is really nice! you look really good, very nice! i like it!!" imagine hearing that being said to almost every single person (in my case, girls/women) Oh My God. is it just me or has that become like a basic manners thing? or even a whole conversation topic!? damn, just be true to yourself is what i think. if you really like it, ok go ahead compliment the person. but not because you feel you can be seen in a nicer 'light' or because u just want to fit in, want to sound like the others, want to sound 'normal'. what about this: "...(talking about something.....), by the way your dress is really nice. i like this pattern over here...." this compliment being said after numerous people have already mentioned it. oh one more way to hear these compliments....make a 'grand'(late) entrance and everybody will be looking at you and then someone will be like 'nice dress' and then comes the echoes of that.....it's like subconsciously they believe you REALLY do look good cos u were taking so long to get ready and pretty, or something...i don't know...i do know that i need to get out of Malaysia as soon as i can.
anyways, i can't wait for this semester to END, but there are so so so many things to be done before it's over! choir concert, CME exam, piano exam, term paper due, exam, working hours...ughhhh.....

oh how we've grown

yet again, i do the same thing - that is when i start something like a blog - i ignore it for a long time and get back to it saying sorry and how busy i was, causing me no time to write here.
anyways, i think i was just lazy..to switch the computer on, go online, write. i should remember to bring with me wherever i go a small notebook or diary cos i need to record there and then what i've experienced, thought about, saw, felt...and only then will i be itching to go online to write here.
ok, so what's happened over the course of time that i didn't check in here? a few things...
1. i got into a bit of an accident.on the road (highway to be exact) as i was driving back to cheras from seremban. it's quite funny and too rare to happen all the time to anyone, that is. a car from the opposite direction, hence opposite side of the highway, lost control or whatever then hit the irondivider. and i happen to be there to see the car in the air, while a piece of that divider breaks off, flying towards my car. thank God though it didnt hit my windscreen, it went under my car, i'm so lucky. so there.

2. my great grandmother passed away. rest her soul. she was...90 something i can't remember. but mind you, she didnt look her age at all. she died pecefully so thats good. she was healthy as well. and i'm grateful to have met her about 5 years ago. before that i was too small to remember meeting her so it was good that i got a chance to see her because i didn't - and won't- get to anymore.

3. what else...my cousin just got married. that was nice.

that's about it...i really need to find a way to earn some money man...my cousin jolynn's 21st birthday is coming up and i don't know what to do. buy a present or make something or...i don't think any present from me would be good enough cos she's those people who have everything (yes, her parents are rich) so it wouldn't mean anything to her, and i want it to mean something...also, my boyfriend's birthday's coming up...still not sure what to do for him as well... hmmm

the ox beckons...

(a road sign in India)

oooh yes, it's been a while since i last posted anything. I'm really bad at this actually. I see other people's blogs and they look real nice n stuff..I'm not all savvy with decorating my blog, which is sad :(
anyways, i had a nice reunion dinner last night. I was looking forward to 'yee sang' and i got it :) it was yummy and lived up to my expectations maybe cos i only eat it once a year so i can't really tell if it tastes better or worse than last year..
I just watched Slumdog Millionaire (although I shouldn't have cos it hasn't arrived in our cinemas - not sure if it ever will..) and oh my goodness i think it dampened my new year mood. I just can't watch these type of movies and just go "oh, nice movie"
aaaahhh..i don't know.. it was really sad, but with a happy ending, but still..the things the boy went through, i don't know how he survived (yes i know its not real,but still..) i guess it's just depressing watching how different people live their lives, or at least try to survive... i haven't read the book yet but now i am gonna make sure i do. Anyway, yay i got nice angpau's from my loved ones :)
that makes me not poor again hehe.. I really gotta save up..i have so many things to buy..phone (iphone preferably =p) and music books.. I need to start teaching part time...to earn some extra money..soon.. i feel so dull today, especially after watching that movie..and unluckily, my boyfriend had to see me later and not get any attention nor reaction from me..I'm so sorry Joachim..I love you!

cold iced lemon tea

On Saturday, i hung out with my dear friend and cousin Siok Leng and Meena :) we were out for quite long, about half the day from 3pm to 12.30am! the best part was i didn't feel it at all. cos that's what happens when you're having fun :)
anyways, we had chinese dinner and then went off to meet two more friends for supper (almost right away cos we took quite awhile for dinner) to this sad little place called CoffeeMug. so we were ordering our drinks and my charming girlfriend SL asked for "iced lemon tea, please. Oh can you make it cold? (she thought she ordered hot iced lemon tea....)" i may have changed her exact words,but that was what it meant LOL i was laughing so much tears were just streaming down my face and i feared a sore throat was coming along but lo it didn't :)
On Sunday, i went to my gramma and grampa's house for lunch and also to spend time with them cos i haven't seen them in 2 weeks. i ended up sleeping after lunch for about an hour and a half. i felt so bad! then my everloving pohpoh made me tea and showed me rambutans that she picked from the tree in her garden,asking me to eat some. and then she lamented about how she couldn't pick some really ripe, nice-looking ones that were growing too high up the tree. so i decided to TRY to pick them with a stick-n-hook my grampa made (omg i tell you, he can make anything from scratch, anything to do with the outdoors just ask)
and i did manage to get a number of 'em down (yayy) it was so fun.it was my first time doing this! it was quite hard as well. it made me really happy that i could do that for my grandparents. cos most of the time i feel useless really. yeah...it was a good day. then at night i watched this show called 'Samantha Who?' it was really good :)
today, back to uni :(
peace n love,

this morning

so many things 'happened' in such a short while.

Israel is bombing gaza to feel all powerful and sh*t.

I'm reading about civilians dying. Adults AND babies. Babies are flying because of the impact of the bombs. Nail bombs. White phosphorus. Israel has some super hi-tech new weaponry stuff that's really bad. it's this thing called the micro pellet.

"Large numbers of it entering the body would destroyorgans like the brain, lungs and abdomen. You can't find the entry point because it enters by very small holes in the skin (The pellets were the size of a pin's head. A pin's head!!!)" [source: The Star, 17 January 2009]

Oh my goodness, while I was reading that...so much pain, and I'm here reading about it with breakfast, peacefully. It sucks really. I wish I could go over there with the relief organizations that people join. I think I wanna do that when i finish my degree, unless of course the war stops, then there's no point of me going is there. I haven't been reading the papers much since last year cos the paper is full of bull (hey, it rhymes) most of the time (especially about politics) so i don't bother anymore. *on a side note, notice that things/words that don't make sense usually rhyme..

That's why I feel like whoa, what the hell - Israel hasn't stopped?? I'm thinking, of course Hamas won't stop cos they're the smaller fish, they need to protect themselves. Israel should know that when they stop, Hamas will definitely stop. I can't believe the president or prime minister or whatever (of Israel) is just letting this go on..I'm really shocked actually. Aren't they supposed to be smart? I think most world leaders now are mercenaries concerned with getting more power.

Anyway, another thing is that I fear I might never get to see my beautiful niece again. But it has nothing to do with the whole Gaza conflict thing, no.

[*edit: I'm happy to say that my niece is back safely and she's an absolute angel. As for the war, it definitely hasn't stopped, last time I checked.]

peace+love

just off the top of my head today

my first real blog wow. . .
i just created this for myself to have a place to rant and here it finally is :)
one thing i hate about thoughts is that if you don't have a pen and paper with you, those thoughts might just vanish and never come back cos you were too busy thinking about them and lots more that you could not possibly remember all of what you thought about.
so, a reminder, have a pen and paper with you wherever you go. it might turn useful one day, especially if you want to let everyone know what you think about things.
anyway, that's what just happened to me today.
i had so much to say, and i was eager to get this blog thing set up and now, there's nothing much i can say. Sad really. I look forward to being back here as soon as possible to hype things up a little :)
toodles