before it's too late

just recently, my aunt told me that my dad really loves me. and i was like what? "yes, he said that you are everything to him or something to that effect.."
whoa...he never says or does anything to convey even a tiny inkling of that statement, though.
i just feel that we should always show the people we love how and what we feel. tell them how we feel. tell anyone how we feel about anything, that they annoy us with their incessant questions, how it's so wonderful that they never fail to make breakfast for us, anything.
Ah, but yes, it is definitely hard to do all these things. We are only human. Some of us with lots ego. all i can say is that we should try to do these things any which way we feel we can.
oh i watched the movie 'The Reader' starring Kate Winslet and Ralph Fiennes. the woman would rather go to jail for a crime she didn't commit just so that noone will know she can't read and write.
it was really sad.
one more thing i can't stand, that i had to live through this past weekend..."your dress is really nice! you look really good, very nice! i like it!!" imagine hearing that being said to almost every single person (in my case, girls/women) Oh My God. is it just me or has that become like a basic manners thing? or even a whole conversation topic!? damn, just be true to yourself is what i think. if you really like it, ok go ahead compliment the person. but not because you feel you can be seen in a nicer 'light' or because u just want to fit in, want to sound like the others, want to sound 'normal'. what about this: "...(talking about something.....), by the way your dress is really nice. i like this pattern over here...." this compliment being said after numerous people have already mentioned it. oh one more way to hear these compliments....make a 'grand'(late) entrance and everybody will be looking at you and then someone will be like 'nice dress' and then comes the echoes of that.....it's like subconsciously they believe you REALLY do look good cos u were taking so long to get ready and pretty, or something...i don't know...i do know that i need to get out of Malaysia as soon as i can.
anyways, i can't wait for this semester to END, but there are so so so many things to be done before it's over! choir concert, CME exam, piano exam, term paper due, exam, working hours...ughhhh.....