dreams
fleeting moments
desires
escape
anywhere but here
rewind
do-over

I feel so stuck. It's not comfortable at all. A little confusing as well. Very frustrating, definitely. Living without regret is terrifyingly hard.

Been a while since I had anything to write about. I've been busy moving house and working on my prep for graduation. But mostly moving house. My new place is still in a lot of mess. It needs a few more days til everything is sorted and arranged. I have to do that on top of practicing the piano and finishing my program notes. Just great. But I keep reminding myself that my recital is much more important than setting up my new place, for now. After all, I only have til August 15th to work my shit out.

It's gonna be awhile more til I get back up to speed with this place.

At the moment:

Listening to... the Paris Cafe channel on Jazz Radio

Eating... peanut butter and jelly and nutella with bread.

Setting... up my desk and bookshelf so I can get to work on my program notes.

Dreaming... of the day when I get a job.

{photo by Pia Jane Bijkerk}

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Listen

Listen to Eisley 

Telescope Eyes (my favored version)

{photo source}

I started listening to this band at 17 or 16 I can't remember. And after that I lost touch and just got back to listening to them this year because I missed the songs a lot. I can't explain it but listening to Eisley made high school better and easier to deal with. Also I remember covering their songs with my best girlfriend Daphne. Good times. I don't remember much else because I have an awful memory.

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{photo by Harper Smith, edited by me}

washed out

weeee collected my developed film today and once again, not all 16 were successful. Only 9 could be salvaged. And it's black and white. Most are crap as always but I'm particularly happy with these. And I think it's high time I found another shop to wash my film.

more here

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Laugh

Sleep is currently eluding me so here I am. I forgot to share this earlier than now so.
I came across this through a Tumblr-blog, because it is the best place on earth.
I'm sorry it's impossible to read it here but I just wanted to have it here.

My Stupid Life by Mitch Clem

Mitch Clem is one hilarious cartoonist. And sometimes self-deprecating (where necessary) and blunt. I just sat and read every one of his strips in one go. It's addictive, really. Sadly though he's stopped posting his drawings there anymore. But anyway it's still worth a read. And it's a very good pick-me-up. Go now!

Currently--
Listening to Arcade Fire. Relating a lot to Suburban War.
Thinking a lot about my future
Contemplating a whole new (scary) life
Back on f******k but I've cleaned it up so I don't have to see updates I'm not bothered about. (I know, I'm mean and antisocial and defeat the whole purpose)

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