Home Aspirations

I already know the kind of home I want to have. I can't control the design much because we're not there yet - the place where we can afford to buy our own land and build our dream house from scratch. What I can take control of is the interior decorating. I've already pinned a pretty number of photos for our new home (when? I don't know, but I know it exists - somewhere in the universe, it's there)

I just kept seeing so many photos of people's spaces, in tumblr and in my google reader that I decided to compile a little of my favorites and would-be inspirations.

All I know is I want fresh flowers in my home and around my home every day. And wooden furniture here and there. Walls are white, everything else is in muted tones with one or two bold but awesome pieces. It's gonna be quite monotonous this house of ours (if I can help it. Hope the mister let's me do my thing), save for the pretty flowers that will lend fresh vibes to our little paradise. That's right. Paradise. I intend to make our home into a place where we can't wait to get to after a hard day's work. Somewhere we can look forward to being, instead of that cool restaurant or that amazing hotel people are talking about. Even when the little feet start running around, I want us to be able to want to be home and not feel like we need to escape to somewhere else (though I'm not going to say no to a holiday, ever). 

I want to be able to worry only about food and drinks when we throw a party in our home. Because everything else is already taken care of. 

That's my dream. To create a home away from stress and chaos. To have a home that inspires me to think and do creatively. That actually puts me in the mood to create more and do more and be better at what I want to do.

Here lies a fraction of my humble collection of dreams.

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I notice my preferences lean towards the Swedish style of design. Clean and crisp. They've just got it all figured out. I love it. I hope my future home possesses a sort of Swedish charm when we're done with it. For now it's all stuck in my head and pinterest.

+photos found via sfgirlbybay, bleubird vintage and my ideal home.

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I fear that the decision I make will be another mistake. I just have to be brave and take the plunge.

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Dead end

I just discovered alt-J's music today. Thank God I bought Laneway tickets for next year already. (Sshhh I haven't told the boy yet.)

I was browsing the internet yesterday, loads of crafty stuff and pretty flowers and photos and videos of event organizing. It made me feel very small (what doesn't, these days..) and it made me rethink about what I want to do - ultimately - with my life, aside from spending it with my future husband. I realize I have to work, to have a steady (or not) income every month. That is the only way I can afford to buy the things I love, buy concert tickets, buy some nice clothes, nice stuff for the home. I couldn't afford a ticket for Laneway this year because I wasn't working, just teaching part time once a week, which was just enough to pay rent and buy food.

I really want to work with paper, print, anything. I'm considering going into event planning. Or just event decorating, if that's a thing. I want to be able to have free time, not just on weekends. I need to figure my shit out. Again.

Well, I just wanted to mention how this song really demonstrates how I feel now. Mellow but restless. I'm very restless and I can't do anything. Yet. 

Here I go again. On and on about how everything is not right.

I am getting married in a month (!!) and this is what I can think about now. You know how they say 'just relax before the wedding, everything will be fine'? Don't believe them. But if you realize that you can, by all means please lay low and rest up, think of nothing but lazing all day.

They gave Obama a second chance. I guess I should give myself a second chance too. Let's see how this goes.

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careless

{sadly, I don't know the source of this photo - but I got it from this tumblr}

Just as I put on the Michael Kiwanuka album, Home Again, and the first song started playing, I was looking at this photo. And I felt it was just so perfect. 

It was like I was right there at that bench, and this exact song came up on the radio or player in the shop. 

I was transported to that place, I could hear that little dog moving about. 

I was without a single worry.

You may imagine something totally opposite from this photo, but in that moment, I thought it was just perfect.

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Ramble Schmamble

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Do you ever feel like you're in a music video when you're in public and you've got your headphones on?

That's exactly how I feel or imagine, every time I put on my mp3 player when I'm on the train. Also because I travel to work alone so it helps when you start creating your own little stories and imaginings so as to not feel bored by the mundane travel situation.

I hope I'm not coming across as crazy or disturbed. As long as I'm not singing along out loud in front of everyone, I think I'm okay.

Wedding prep is finally back on track. Here's hoping everything will be splendid come December 29th.

Work is great, getting really awesome paychecks. The only downside is I'm left with one full free day every week and by then all I want to do is sleep. DIY projects need more than that, so it's bad news. But with a little help from some lovely people, I think we can pull it off. I must believe that.

Sorry about this crap post. I had a few topics lined up in my head to blog about but they were all erased. I think last night's dancing made sure of that. Ah well. I'll just have to wait until something comes back to me.

Just downloaded Wild Nothing's Nocturne. Best decision today, so far. Listen to the first track of the album, Shadow.

Also, I just discovered Frank Ocean. (Yes, awfully late to the party.) Enjoy.

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