The Professional Daydreamer

Monday, November 12, 2012

I fear that the decision I make will be another mistake. I just have to be brave and take the plunge.

peace+love

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Dead end

I just discovered alt-J's music today. Thank God I bought Laneway tickets for next year already. (Sshhh I haven't told the boy yet.)

I was browsing the internet yesterday, loads of crafty stuff and pretty flowers and photos and videos of event organizing. It made me feel very small (what doesn't, these days..) and it made me rethink about what I want to do - ultimately - with my life, aside from spending it with my future husband. I realize I have to work, to have a steady (or not) income every month. That is the only way I can afford to buy the things I love, buy concert tickets, buy some nice clothes, nice stuff for the home. I couldn't afford a ticket for Laneway this year because I wasn't working, just teaching part time once a week, which was just enough to pay rent and buy food.

I really want to work with paper, print, anything. I'm considering going into event planning. Or just event decorating, if that's a thing. I want to be able to have free time, not just on weekends. I need to figure my shit out. Again.

Well, I just wanted to mention how this song really demonstrates how I feel now. Mellow but restless. I'm very restless and I can't do anything. Yet.

Here I go again. On and on about how everything is not right.

I am getting married in a month (!!) and this is what I can think about now. You know how they say 'just relax before the wedding, everything will be fine'? Don't believe them. But if you realize that you can, by all means please lay low and rest up, think of nothing but lazing all day.

They gave Obama a second chance. I guess I should give myself a second chance too. Let's see how this goes.

peace+love

Tuesday, October 2, 2012

careless

{sadly, I don't know the source of this photo - but I got it from this tumblr}

Just as I put on the Michael Kiwanuka album, Home Again, and the first song started playing, I was looking at this photo. And I felt it was just so perfect.

It was like I was right there at that bench, and this exact song came up on the radio or player in the shop.

I was transported to that place, I could hear that little dog moving about.

I was without a single worry.

You may imagine something totally opposite from this photo, but in that moment, I thought it was just perfect.

peace & love

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Ramble Schmamble

{source}

Do you ever feel like you're in a music video when you're in public and you've got your headphones on?

That's exactly how I feel or imagine, every time I put on my mp3 player when I'm on the train. Also because I travel to work alone so it helps when you start creating your own little stories and imaginings so as to not feel bored by the mundane travel situation.

I hope I'm not coming across as crazy or disturbed. As long as I'm not singing along out loud in front of everyone, I think I'm okay.

Wedding prep is finally back on track. Here's hoping everything will be splendid come December 29th.

Work is great, getting really awesome paychecks. The only downside is I'm left with one full free day every week and by then all I want to do is sleep. DIY projects need more than that, so it's bad news. But with a little help from some lovely people, I think we can pull it off. I must believe that.

Sorry about this crap post. I had a few topics lined up in my head to blog about but they were all erased. I think last night's dancing made sure of that. Ah well. I'll just have to wait until something comes back to me.

Just downloaded Wild Nothing's Nocturne. Best decision today, so far. Listen to the first track of the album, Shadow.

Also, I just discovered Frank Ocean. (Yes, awfully late to the party.) Enjoy.