thoughts thoughts thoughts

(Okay, the word looks really weird after looking at it more than once)
This was what I just thought about.
I was just thinking about how I wanted to learn a new language. Actually more than one.
Mandarin and French. Both very very important for myself.
Then I thought about how I have no money to spare for classes. Because I don't want to rely on my parents.
I want to earn my own money. But I don't know (or haven't decided) what I want to do to earn some.
Then I'm dreaming about travelling, backpacking even. And then I think about how that requires a pretty little mountain of money. Which I don't have.
And then, I think somewhere in my head I made up this stupid excuse about how lack of money can ruin people. I didn't realize that there was the option of changing that fact.
Don't worry, now I know that I can overcome having no money. By actually working. gaddamit.
Because I can't work while studying. Because I know I won't be able to handle it while pushing myself to practice everyday.
It's already hard now. With nothing else but piano and it's still hard.
Because I'm a natural-born slacker. (I believe)
So many people call themselves slackers. But they're all working somehow.
I really wish I decide what to do soon.
I also wish I'll be ready for my graduation recital in August. 15th. (Bless me)
At this point, I wish I had to do a thesis or a project or anything else. It sounds way better than having to perform in front a bunch of people. Perform a lot. (Yes, so performing is out of the picture as my future career choice)
Anyway.

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treasure-trove

I've been living in Tumblr-world a lot recently. It's probably why there aren't many posts here.
In that time, I've stumbled across many, many crazy-beautiful blogs - on life, love, self and the world. One particular blog that struck me was oceanofmind. I do hope you have an open mind when reading this blog because I think it is quite personal to the owner. And I admire his bravery in writing and posting about his beliefs, thoughts, views and interests for everyone to pore over.
Besides his blog, I'm feasting my ears to his playlist as well.

"Do not allow your emotions to rule you, otherwise you will suffer. To ground yourself and discover the real centre, is your life's real purpose."

-Aziz Kristof, Human Buddha

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another self-absorbed self-reflection

Been a week since I last posted.
Then again, I'm not your average writer.
I'm a part-time music student, part-time slacker chick, part-time TV+movie addict.
So you ( I ) can't really expect too much.
It was Mothers' Day last Sunday.
Feeling awful cos I didn't do anything for my mum.
She had to pay for a Mothers' Day event at some crap place, apparently it's for charity. And I don't do events like those.
All I do is music events and a bit of plays here and there.
Not the best social person.
Been tweeting alot. For my own entertainment.
Oh, Incubus is coming to town! 23rd July. Definitely going. Brandon Boyd and his writing. And his art. It's crazy.
Okay so obviously I just wanted to write shit down here so that it wouldn't be the same post staring at my face the next time I open this blog.
Oh and right now, I'm starting to feel very afraid that I won't be ready by August. It's proving to be a bitch to push myself.

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Listen to Are You In?

(yeah that's the ex-bassist but since he was there making this song I figured he should be here. Plus, it's no doubt he's really good. Check out Summer Romance. They all are just really good. Damn.)

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Some things are worth doing

screen-captured by yours truly. Michelberger Hotel

I don't know or remember why I didn't talk about this earlier. It's been quite a while I don't remember when I found this hotel's site on the web. I think this site is too cool and I don't wanna know how they came up with it (though I have a few guesses that might be right haha). It just shows that there is no limit to creativity. And that is just amazing. 

I don't think I would be able to afford staying there but I'd definitely check it out. It kinda exudes the lifestyle I desire. But doesn't everything else, these days?(Attn: Adeline!)

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Bring it

It's May already. My, oh my. I'm listening to Squirrel Nut Zippers. Definitely not the kind of music you listen to when you're down and you need some time to wallow.

Anyways. May, bring it. I promise myself to practice harder each day. I promise to be on top of graduation prep  (program notes, composers' info, and of course my pieces.)

Also, I promise to avoid chicken rice as much as I possibly can (after yesterday). It's not related to the main issue here but I just thought it best to say it. Chicken rice is really good but the after taste just never leaves your mouth till you scrub it out. I think it's the ginger or garlic. I'm not good with this stuff. My ex-housemate used to tell me that eating chicken rice before a class presentation is a no-no (bad breath is a big faux pas). I say eating chicken rice is a no-no; because all you'll want to do is sleep after. It's horrible and sinful, really. I always, always feel bad after enjoying a plate of chicken rice. So, no more. No more feeling bad. The only solution is to avoid chicken rice which should be easy. There are so many other food choices. I should be fine.

As unprepared as I am, I can't wait for August. I can't wait to get a job, internship or permanent or part-time or full-time. I can't wait to save more money, since I'm trying to save as much as I can now with my allowance. It sucks to be getting allowance at this age when your peers and those younger are already earning their own money. Sucks balls.

WASTED RITA - superheroes

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